I don't know how many times I've started blogs only to abandon them shortly afterwards. What can I say, I must be some kind of a wanna be writer.
I've gotta ask myself, what's going to be different this time? What's changed since the last blog? What's the purpose of all this? Is it for me or is it for you?
I've been running a lot through the woods lately. There's a lot of nothing to think about as you fly through trails in hours what other people would walk through in days. I purposefully do not listen to music or podcasts or anything of the such because that'd be such a waste of such peace and quiet. It's a great time to reflect and think about things... or to occasionally just meditate on the pain you're feeling in your knees.
Anyhow, I've found myself a few miles into a run and I'm practically writing out what my experiences are like in my head. It's happened a few times now and I just figure it doesn't hurt for me to get them out there. It's not to say that my experiences are profound or unique but rather, these thoughts in my head as they relate to my experiences seem interesting and creative. I'm not looking to break into the world of outdoor writing or to really do anything other than get back to something I once really loved to do.
I'll never forget my freshmen English teacher, Mr. Wacker imparting upon us what a journal should or should not be. He said something like a diary is where you recollect what happened in the day and a journal is something where you go much deeper than that. While I do feel like I probably wrote more in high school than I've written in the entire rest of my life, I also feel like this notion has blocked out endless amounts of writing. It makes me feel like describing my day is something not worthy of putting down on paper when in reality, it seems like such a sensible place to start.
Anyhow, I'm going to treat this blog as a journal. I expect there to be at least 10 "drafts" for every 1 real published post. I'm going to try to get in a rhythm of writing about what I've done on a daily basis and then maybe I can get into the nitty grittier things like how I'm feeling and what I think about more abstract ideas. I'm planning to use this as a medium for thought rather than a medium for gratuitous self promotion.
Maybe things will be different this time because I'm writing for the sake of writing rather than writing for the sake of having an internet presence. Maybe this is for me, rather than you. I always have said, that I'll play the piano every day for my own pleasure. If you want to listen though, that's fine too. Maybe that's the approach I'll take for this blog and that's why things will be different this time.